Long, beautiful hair, Shining, gleaming, Streaming, flaxen, waxen

My ever living debate on my hair. I know I plan to grow it out very long but currently I am debating the color. Its still in the Rogue-esque look I did for Comic-Con with the auburn color in the back and the nice white streak in the front. The upkeep for that though, unfortunately, takes a lot. The blond of my hair starts to show after about a week but I really refuse to dye it more than every two weeks, so then I get stuck with this weird blond root look right in the forefront of my head. I may keep it like this for a bit longer till my hair grows out some more. It currently sits at the top of my back, slowly approaching my bra line. My decision though is whether I will let my natural color come back, dye it a lighter blond for the upcoming spring and summer or go for the auburn color all over. Again, upkeep is the main problem so that is why I am sort of leaning towards just letting my natural come in so I wont be worrying over roots all the time, but then I also tend to dislike my natural after a while and wind up dying it some outrageous color I have no way of up-keeping for long and so I'm forced to chop it all off. Decisions, decisions. I'll figure it out soon enough.

The Final Countdown

So its the final days to the home stretch. My limit is almost up and I of course have not hit my goal. I have however made it one of my New Years resolutions to continue trying to write at least 5 posts a month. My ultimate goal would be one a day but hey, lets start small and work my way up to greatness. I am also way too heavy and need to desperately loose weight, but that's a conversation for me and my journal. I have noticed that I own a great many journals, almost all of which have never been written to completion. They all hold the beginnings of some great story I later continued on my laptop or just got severe writers block and walked away from. The sub part of my second resolution, which is to write more, will contain both my blog and my journals. These are things I really need to focus on. As I said I will write my in depth resolution list on another post, one I would like to wait until New Years Eve to post, but its not like anyone really reads this anyway. Heck my own husband even admitted he doesnt, so its no sweat off my back if I miss the deadline by a few hours, this is all for me anyway.

Song For Ten

Well I am slowly approaching my goal of beating last years post total. This will be number 10, I only have that many more to post. I'm not really sure I can make it in less than a week, but I'm going to try my damnedest. The delay probably also stems from the fact that my Microsoft Office isnt currently working on my laptop so I haven't been writing, ergo I have no been creative. When I am not creative I do not have much to ponder on and blog about. I do hope my husband can fix it for me soon so that I may be able to write, and ponder, and blog. Even if I do not reach my goal by the end of the year I will make it one of my resolutions to write at least 5 posts a month.

That will be my next post, New Years Resolutions.
Or at least one of, maybe it will be the last to ring in the New Year and finish off December Posts.

No Phone & Need Exercise

So to start Christmas Eve off right my phone hasnt been working for three days. While I should be mad, I just cant seem to find the energy. Although I am a bit peeved that I am paying for something I cannot use, I'm sure I'll get angry soon enough. The only bother I have with my no phone issues is that I cant wish those I love a Merry Christmas, but hopefully this wont last much longer and I will be able to make it up to them.

Now as for exercise, my god I am in need. I've always had trouble with my weight and only for about two years did I get to where I wanted to be. How did I get there? Work. I worked at jobs that required me to stand and lift and move for endless hours. Then I got a desk job and now I'm at home and I have piled on the weight. Twenty pounds to be exact. For the past year I have tried a personal trainer, diet, running and basic exercise. Alas I never seem to stick with it and always end up looking same as I did the week before, and the week before that. I'm going to strive to lose weight in the new year and to keep up with a healthy exercise regimen. Thirty days is all I will need, thirty days to develop a habit and then it will be that much easier to stick with it.

Mad as a Hatter

If words are written on a blog that no one reads, does the blog really exist?

I believe the answer is, duh, of course. But rather the question within the question.

Why continue writing if no one reads?

Because, I read it. A blog is a living journal. Whereas in my book no one can happen upon the words inside and therefore it will surely not exist beyond me. If I were to die that journal may or may not be read and therefore definitely cease to exist. But, a blog, in the internet, open to all to read, will forever exist. I come back to it and read about things I had written or thought upon. The ideas and words seem so long ago, but could be merely weeks. Its like a time capsule, the more you leave it, the greater mystery it holds. You forget what you might have loved at that age, that time, that week. As adults our habits do not change, you love a food or movie in a moment. But moments pass and new ones arise. New loves, and dislikes come forth and banish the old. Everything changes. Once again, that is a blessing and a curse. As things change, new ideas can be brought forth but other, cherished ones, get tossed aside because they are no longer valuable. I for one can be grateful that the vampire craze has taken hold and perhaps my work will be chosen next in the line of great works. But the fear, is that soon it will be over and no one will again want for the things I write. Then where will I be? Lost and forgotten like all the other fads and trends. When you're young its easy to say 'Its just a phase', because your whole life lies ahead, waiting for your next idea to flourish. But as you age and time moves on, dwelling on a phase can do great damage to you and can no longer be played off to childhood antics. Instead regret and remorse develop and leave you sodden with it. I'm sure in a few months I will come back to this post and say, "Was I completely off my rocker?" And to that I say, "Yes, bitch. You have the flu this week and your fever has made you rambling mad." To which future me will reply, "Mad as a hatter."

Understanding Haven

So, originally when I started writing 'Haven' it was based off of a dream I had. One or two other scenes I wrote randomly also seemed to coincide with the basic plot and I wove them together. Now I have a full fledged story and as people read it they all mention how interested they are in learning more about 'Haven'. My first response to this is always, 'Shit, I didn't really write about the haven.' The reason being, Haven is just a place, a setting for the story, but it isn't 'The Story'. I have developed it a bit more and brought it into the story as we go but, this was all after people started bringing it up. Then I thought, 'How bad of a writer am I that I completely ignored this whole topic?' In truth, the haven isn't really the main plot of 'Haven'. While the story may be named after it, the title has a double meaning. Once you read the story you'll understand that for the main character she is trying to find a metaphorical 'haven' within herself, within her life, whilst she is dealing with the actual haven. I'm sure this all seems like nonsensical babble, but its the truth of it, and when you do read 'Haven', you'll understand.

If its tea, its for me...

I love tea. I try all different sorts and sometimes I will go back to my favorites, but nevertheless, I love them. When I write it is pretty much my number one thing, besides my laptop of course. I've been told I am very British when it comes to my tea because, I like it with milk and sugar. My husband of course looks upon me like I have six heads, all spitting milk at him. I never did understand why milk would be such an odd thing to put in your tea. After all, people who drink coffee sometimes like milk and sugar. Plenty of tea's are caffeinated, it only stands to reason they would both be flavored in similar ways. I recently found the convenience of sweetened condensed milk, instead of scooping out sugar, making a mess, and then grabbing the milk from the fridge. Yes, I am that lazy!

Seriously Lucas?

If you don't stop making me play this song I am going to kill you!
'What You Are' by Audioslave.
I get it, you love Lucy like no other, but seriously dude, you have to wait your turn!
Trust me when you meet this guy, you're gonna love him, but for now, I HATE HIM!
At first glance the lyrics to this song might make you think, 'Huh? This is a love song?' But you cant take everything at face value. When you meet him, you'll understand.

Sorry for this intro to a random character, but they tend to get away from me. Suckers have a life of their own some days.

Fantastic 'Nobody Knows' by Babyface...its like a sick joke to him!
(And also now the 9th Doctor is smiling in my head from the 'Fantastic', here I go again.)

Catch Lucas in, 'Firestarter', maybe some time next year....if he's a good boy.

My Safe 'Haven'

As a black calico, also known as Princess Ed, lay across my legs, and an orange tabby named, Kenny, sits on the back of my chair, I write to you. Empty Girl, by Dave Navaro, pours from my laptops speakers. English breakfast tea, with sweetened condensed milk, chills on my end table. My Burts Bee's chapstick awaits its third application of the day.

All the while I am NOT working on 'Technicolor' but rather a side project, 'Haven'. Its odd and complex and strays far from my comfort zone, while Lina and Leo are my world, my true safe haven.

With them I know my place. Vampires are kind of my thing. Lina's song 'Starry Eyed'(Jacwob's Remix) by Ellie Goulding softly pumps from the speakers. 'Lightning' and the bass drops. But I've already written her story and while there is much more for her, at the moment she is relaxing.

'Got You Where I Want You' by The Flys flows out like some sort of irony. Because 'Haven' does in fact have me where they want me.

Katya and Drew torment my day to day with quirky habits and flashbacks of lives I havent written yet. Their possibilities are endless and I love the feeling of becoming completely engrossed in their world, far from the sweet, simple one I live with Lina and Leo.

'Girls'(Beyonce Cover) by Glee taunts me. 'You'll do anything for me- Well, yes, if you never stop talking I kind of have to. What's worse is there has become a battle ground of sequels and continuations inside my mind.

''Rumour has it/Someone like you'(Adele Cover) by Glee soothes me. 'Dont forget me, I beg. I remember you said...', SING IT SANTANA! Melina and Ario want their time in the limelight. They've waited patiently, and now its their turn.

'No!', Shouts Katya and friends. 'We're just getting started.' I do wish my children wouldnt fight so.

For Those Who Dont Visit My Website

Thoughts On Lina & Leo

So, 'Super Bass' by Nicki Minaj and 'Starry Eyed'(Jakwob Remix) by Ellie Goulding have become two songs that remind me of Lina and Leo. 'Starry Eyed' is definitely how Lina feels about Leo. As for 'Super Bass', although it is supposed to be from a female perspective I just cant help but picture Leo thinking that, "Girl you got my heartbeat runnin' away. Beating like a drum and it's coming your way. Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass. Yeah that's that super bass."

I'd be very interested to know what other songs might remind you of those two. Feel free to share!

I'm kind of ashamed of myself...

Only one post this entire year! And its already December! This will make two of course, but still! Last year had 19 and even that seemed cheap. A whole year, twelve months, fifty two weeks, YOU KNOW THE DRILL!

Last year that came to like 1.3 posts a month...sigh...I'm terrible. Let's see if I cant beat last years number at least. Update you all with the happenings and maybe, ionno, ramble about some nonsense for ya. Tom Petty is currently serenading me with 'Its Christmas All Over Again'. Nothing beats this!