"I found The Joker's psyche disturbing, his dementia alarming - and his charm irresistible! What can I tell ya? The guy just did it for me."---Harley Quinn

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Home Is Where My Husband Should Be

I do not live with my husband.
When I tell most people this they look at me as if I have suddenly grown eight heads and they are all speaking a dead language. I wont tell you which cause that would ruin the surprise.
For almost a year now my husband and I have been together, we have only been married eight months. I have tried and tried again to be with my husband and each time something gets in my way, friends, family, money, its all shit. I want my husband and I am sick of waiting. No person would ever ask this of anyone, if they truly cared about them, even if they didnt, you just simply dont. The expectations of some are insane. To think that I would willingly stay separated from my husband for the entire first year of our marriage.
Would you ask that of anyone you know? For your own personal reasons?
Would you ask someone to sacrifice their first year together as man and wife?
To simply give up all those wonderful 'firsts' they are meant to experience together?
We do not know if we will live to see tomorrow and I want to know who can knowingly be so selfish as to take what may be a persons last and only day to be one with their partner.
My husband says to me that we will have other firsts once we live together but for now I forfeit all of our first memories to make other people happy.
My final question is, how do they feel they can make up what is forever lost to us?
To hell with you all.