Porcelain is Finished!

Finally finished writing my second novel 'Porcelain'. I of course still have to do proofreading and minor editing but the story itself is finished. I hope that everyone likes it and I cant wait to finish more of my books. Ive already written up the synopsis for this book.

"After a close call car accident Allison Tolsen becomes a patient of Coney Island Hospital. While her boyfriend seems to stop caring her devilishly handsome doctor, Sean Barado, is willing to step up to the plate. The only problem is the more time she spends around him, and his brother Gabriel, the more she senses there's something about them she cant put her finger on. And to top it all off she may even be falling for her doctor as well."

I also decided on these four pictures for the cover. Ill narrow it down soon.

Birthday Diet

Alright well my birthday is in exactly 3 weeks and I am already the third day into my new diet. I got this amazingly gorgeous dress from my sudo sister Marcy. It is of course skimpy and tight hence the need of a diet. Nothing drastic to the point of anorexia but I am trying to flatten out my pudgy tummy a bit. I found what is called the Apple Cider Vinegar Diet, which is 1-3 tsp. of apple cider vinegar drank after every meal. On top of that I have started eating healthier food, fruits, veggies, yogurt and straight protein for each meal. I am so gonna be poop master of this house for the next few weeks. Ive also begun exercising again, squats, yoga moves, and basic stretching to help with my upper and lower abs. I hope that I successful because I would really like to be stunning in my dress, if not I will have to get completely obliterated so I do not notice the pudge to my stomach. Wish me luck everyone, Ill keep you updated!

Home Is Where I Can Poop For However Long I Desire

My husband however thinks-'My wife is in the bathroom so I must bother her.'
He really needs to learn this thing called privacy cause right now, I have none.
We finally got our own apartment, and even though it was two months ago that we moved in I have only JUST now gotten the time to actually catch up with everyone and everything.
It took three weeks to paint, clean and unpack everything.
Still there are bags and things packed away that cannot be unpacked until other parts are bought or put up, but for the most part it is home.
I was also busy settling the new kitten, Kenny and our dog, Bishop into their new home. As well as running every errand that my husband could not due to his new daytime work schedule.
After all was said and done I finally picked up my hunt for a new job and sadly Im still on the prowl. I do hope to find one soon because this whole not having money of my own thing is really starting to bother me, that and I am going stir crazy in such a tiny apartment with such wild and playful animals who dont seem to realize that I am not a trampoline for them to bounce off of.
I may bitch and complain but honestly I have never been happier in my life. I know that when I do finally get the job that is right for me I will be stress free and living the life I was meant to live.
Now I am off to finish that deadline I gave myself for my masterpiece!

FRENCH VANILLA CAWFEE!

The title is self explanatory. I love french vanilla coffee. It is my weakness.
My mother has finally, literally, decided to sell the house. She is actually making the moves and all that jazz to get the fuck out. We are throwing things out, dividing up all that is in the house to see who wants what. And in my mothers true fashion she is having panic attacks left and right. It just wouldnt be her if she didnt spaz out. Regardless though she is being strong and sticking with her path and plan to finally leave this house. I have been here for over twenty years, she has been here for almost sixty, it is time we move on. I will miss my home, for it is the only one I have ever known. But I will be excited to move into a new home with my husband and start memories of our own and build a life together. I do find myself sorrowful that my children will never get to run across the old wood floors. Or play in the cracked cement and weed jungle garden. Or even go down the steps on their butts, just like I did as a child, which is everyone's reason for me having such a big butt. I'm sorry they wont know the place I grew up, or get to be apart of those memories. But I am grateful I have so many memories and so much to tell them. I may be losing my childhood home but I am gaining so much in the end, and for that I can not complain.

Home Is Where My Husband Should Be

I do not live with my husband.
When I tell most people this they look at me as if I have suddenly grown eight heads and they are all speaking a dead language. I wont tell you which cause that would ruin the surprise.
For almost a year now my husband and I have been together, we have only been married eight months. I have tried and tried again to be with my husband and each time something gets in my way, friends, family, money, its all shit. I want my husband and I am sick of waiting. No person would ever ask this of anyone, if they truly cared about them, even if they didnt, you just simply dont. The expectations of some are insane. To think that I would willingly stay separated from my husband for the entire first year of our marriage.
Would you ask that of anyone you know? For your own personal reasons?
Would you ask someone to sacrifice their first year together as man and wife?
To simply give up all those wonderful 'firsts' they are meant to experience together?
We do not know if we will live to see tomorrow and I want to know who can knowingly be so selfish as to take what may be a persons last and only day to be one with their partner.
My husband says to me that we will have other firsts once we live together but for now I forfeit all of our first memories to make other people happy.
My final question is, how do they feel they can make up what is forever lost to us?
To hell with you all.

I Miss You Cupcake

My husband has taken my laptop. My way on interacting with my online family. I do have another computer, this computer I am using right now but it doesn't feel like my computer therefore I do not have the urge to run to it and divulge all that is in my mind. Hopefully I will have my laptop back soon and be able to feel whole once more. Its amazing how the difference in whats yours and someone else things mean to you. How they affect you. Why do I have such a problem writing on this computer? It has the same internet, a keyboard and all the major amenities, but it does not have my information. It does not have my bookmarks, my history or documents. Without those simple things we take for granted, I am lost. For now this is the best I can do, but it is not my best only a mediocre version of my true self.

I Give Jennifer Love Hewitt Props!

That girl can sing. I know its probably really late seeing as how she hasnt done anything in years but I guess like everyone I was skeptical to take her serious as an artist. Not sure how great all of her songs are, Im sure some lack cause hey no everyone can make the greatest album of all time (STP can of course) but she does have some really sweet songs. Top fave has to be Take My Heart Back and I'm Gonna Love You, if no one told you it was her you'd say 'Hey this is a really nice song.' Knowing it was her I still listened to a few of her songs and was impressed at her singing abilities I did not know she had it in her and I am very proud of her for putting herself out there.

Also with that have to say she is definitely a great role model for girls simply for the fact that she is a normal looking woman. She has a full bodied figure and doesn't hide it or try and change that. My husband may say she's a shitty actress but I still watch Ghost Whisperer when it comes on because in today's world she is way better than the so called 'actresses of today'. Go J. Love!